Red Talks: The Hiatus

She listens too well

To all my issues and pain

It's too much for me

 

I'm from a cold hell

And she seems quick to forget

That angels fell too

 

She's one of the best

Being there? It's hard right now

I'm just one more lie

 

She's honestly great

And I'm just really grateful

I need a long break

 

I'm a butterfly

Slowly falling to the ground

Changing into things

 

It makes perfect sense

I'm in a dark chrysalis

Figures my mind's mush

 

You like words and screens

And I prefer sounds and cords

Terrible planning

 

The dancer and art

The introvert and speeches

Accidents not planned

 

As of now no clue

I'm not sure what holds it tight

But I'm no help. Right!

 

Am I trying? No

I don't want to fix a thing

I am just frozen

 

Now I need to melt

Away from your warmth quietly

Some time out of touch

 

You're immortal right?

Or so you would have me think

Even gods have heels

 

Before the end comes

I'll give the challenge a rest

Drop the bow and walk

 

I have a french name

I could bring you down slowly

Apollo's with me

 

Avoid all of this?

Forget the lust  and  power

No wandering eyes

 

Those thoughts are not cheap

I can not  match that steep price

I would be without

 

I hear you. I do

I'm the wiser one for once

So just listen please

 

This is you and I

 

You're the friend and I the name

I have nothing left

 

Nothing  left seems right

I push and push. It's pointless

Let us just be names

 

They don't speak or hurt

The lucky ones are pieces

I think I could. You?

 

I'm torn between things

What I remember and feel

I'm angry and tired

 

Winded from being

Being polite and friendly

All of it okay

 

You would never know

I strip most of my layers

Except the last one

 

I hold you safely

At a respectable space

Let's just let it be

 

Let's wave the white flags

You don't need to reach out

I can stop trying

 

Paging Dr. Blair

The time of death: this moment

For now or ever?

 

 

 

Epilogue: Friendships come and go. Right now they're in limbo phase many of them to be honest. Some were unexpected others I foresaw.  I don't see the effort in forcing something. Either it's there or not.

 

The Worst Days

Done