Proxima Centauri

Proxima Centauri

A monster

Really and truly


Why stay?

The moon has no effect

On my tides

I stay drowning

I'm a water sign

I'm a pisc..let me spell it out

I give rise to oh?

Stripping away any sense of si!

Defined as an

Because I'm not enough to be an animal

So I can't be understood

I'm just part of the Ocean

The stable land shakes me down

Burying me in the humidity of your mountains

I the drowned jew

Before Jochebed' son passed through


That silver lining in the night sky?

A false sense of security

Nothing anymore

So you believe in nothing any more

And your faith is wasted

While you die thirsty

Because your beliefs couldn't stand for your convictions

Your judgement is clearly impaired

Yet you trust your sobriety

Not knowing that you were drunk all the while

So your faith was born to belligerent thoughts

Never knowing it was stumbling

Believing itself to be cleansing waters

That silver lining in the dark sky?

Just streaks of Cîroc

Streaming down the outside of a sphere


Rebel?

Who me?

I'm just another plagiarism

You just haven't heard of the demigod yet

I'm just just another monster

That's reckless

Because I seem to wreck less

All lies

I have crashes and comas in my own lanes

I'm currently in a constant state of repair

The shop knows me well

My debts are high

Jesus trusted me with the wheel

He made a mistake for real

Rebel?

Inkbot rather

My shape and design

Means less than interpreted

Just a traced mistake

An aborted piece

An Abiece


Why run?

I can't speak the language of numbers

But I begin to calculate the reasons to leave

You can call me  the sun

If not for any other reason

Than my proximity

For I'm one of a billion

Ignore the faux  shine

It's just an echo

Better if you call me Proxima Centauri

4.22 light years in time

Find freedom in the distance

And let me have mine

Turn these thoughts to parts of a faded memory

The number of seconds in that span

May be enough of a reason


Why you?

Your faith is over

And your sanity is dosed

Surely

Time is money

My debts are high

And your interest should be low

I don't raze you with fire

I raise your disappointments with steps

It's a stubborn and slow walk

My surname?

I wear it well now

I prefer the tedious and meticulous death

A separation of want and desire

You can't maintain this pace

This was meant for a thoroughbred

Despite your claims you're  a liar

You have all the weaknesses of muggle

You weren't thorough when bred

I want to leave  you with an insidious lack of breath

As  you cease to struggle

This is a man's race

An 800m

Because it's two much

You're worried about your stride

For me it's innate

While you focus on what's at stake

I'm ready  to cerebrate

Creating  my end

That's  why you're left to mend


The end?

What else did you expect

You tried your way

I felt like an imposter

A politician

I didn't want the votes

My mind was more than bipartisan

I couldn't hold the pieces

My demons couldn't be handled

My two hands seemed to taunt me

As things fell in threes

And fours

A complete holy sum

But I was left sinful and missing

Your targets became my nooses

And your uppity bars

My cocaine

I wish you'd leave

Or just let me go

I can no longer pretend to appreciate the loyalty

It's an obligation that burns my veins

It's a circus

But at least a lady of the night

Gets paid for her tricks

The mask isn't worth the shade


Friends?

I'm not sure anymore

Are we attached by sincerity

Or hazy memories of younger acquaintances

It's harder to understand

As you seem to stand above

I held it close

And it sickened me

Screaming on my own frequency


4.22?

I think that's close enough to see the light

And far enough away to not be affected

I know what I'm not

I'm not what they think

And not what you know

I know about the nots

They comfort me in a way

It's the certainty that causes me dread

I'm not sure what will become of me

When I fix my mirror

And use a compass

I doubt my resolve when only the core remains

People have ideas of themselves

But that's all they are until one learns

Exist in distance?

Let me be

I'd rather be a monster

Really and truly

Than a homeless star











the smile

Cocaine: settling